Dear Old Friend

I've put myself in quite a mood yesterday and today.  I have to go back to work on Monday.  It's not the work itself that I dread, but the drive and the time away from the kids.  Add to that - I probably over-did it the last few days between a 5k I wasn't prepared for and painting the rest of the living room.  I'm just tired.  Then, my ex called this morning to say that our dog was sick and losing teeth. I try not to focus on the parts of divorce that really suck.  But today, it's been hard.  When you decide to go through with a divorce, you expect it to be hard.  You know that a daily communication with that person will stop.  You expect it to be hard on the kids.  You don't expect the little things.  Like what will happen when your dog gets sick?  Neither of us can afford a long term treatment plan if something is seriously wrong with her.  I have never understood people who were "overly attached" to their pets.  But I'm not even embarassed to admit I cried like a baby when I got off the phone.

So, I wrote a letter to her.  Because I miss her.

Dear Sasha,

I miss seeing your crooked little smile everyday.  I miss the way you would get aggravated with Tango and go beat the mess out of him.  You are seriously the best dog in the world.  Woman's best friend.  You didn't love my children as much as I did and I can't blame you - Oliver pulled your tail and pushed you out of chairs one too many times, but you never lost your patience with him.  He still gives me updates on Sasha Dog when he comes home.  I miss the goofy way you used to "talk" to me.  I remember telling Matt you sounded like a wookie.  I would gladly bring you home today if I could, skin allergies and expensive food and all.  You were my buddy when I was down.  I miss our car rides just to get out of the house and sharing snacks with you.  I didn't want to leave you.  I hope you didn't think I forgot about you, sweet girl.  I can't imagine a day that I drop off or pick up Oliver and you're not there.  I hope you're ok and that I'm just overly emotional for no reason.  But if you're not, know that you were a great dog and the best companion anyone could ask for.  I love you.

Christy