I feel like I missed the entire month of February. It's hard to believe it flew by this quickly. My resolve to blog more in 2014 is already floundering, but here I am...making an attempt. I am trying to stick to my resolution to be more positive. But, sometimes, it's a LOT easier to just get stuck in the mud. So, more often than not, my "march" forward becomes more of a trudge (that usually involves a lot of whining). We're going back to court tomorrow. Which ultimately means that there will be no sleep for me tonight and near panic-inducing anxiety tomorrow morning. But I am resolved to play it cool. I'm going to bring a book, and not let anyone get to me. So, if you try to contact me tomorrow, and I don't respond, I am probably fine, just "in the zone". My life really is not bad at the moment. It's (for the most part) quite peaceful. But it's hard to relax when in the back of your mind you know everything is not settled and the peace is only temporary. It's somewhat encouraging to see that the kids are happy and are adjusting. I, personally, take no credit for this. I am blessed to be surrounded by an army of people who love the kids and do not let them feel neglected or wanting in the least. In fact, I'm starting to believe they could hear the word "no" a little more often.
But back to the beginning of this post - February seemed to just be a waiting kind of month. I've often wondered what purgatory is supposed to be like and I feel like I've gotten a taste of it this month. It's neither good or bad. It just is. And it's SO overly frustrating. Good or bad, I want this battle to be over so that I can help the kids move on and adjust to whatever new reality they will have to face. So, I ask that you keep us in your prayers tomorrow. This isn't even the trial, it's just temporary orders, so nothing will be final tomorrow. Just pray that what is best for the kids will come through and everything else will be ok.
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